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For me that longing is easily quenched by my own laziness.

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It’s hot out there and I’ve been working all day.

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So I don't take my two mites. I only put one of those mites in because I need one.  

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God knows I need to eat. 

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So I hedge my bet. 

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And if I live my life by hedging my bet, by building my bigger barns,

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by protecting myself, by not risking life and limb and sleep and space and reputation,

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then that longing in my heart begins to be diminished. 

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It gets fanned into flame by a meeting, then it dissipates

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Then it's up and down, up and down, up and down. 

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And the years go by…

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I'm flipping the calendar pages and nothing has changed. 

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Well then, I've got to create a doctrine that says,

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"Oh well, it's not really supposed to change.”

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“I just need to be faithful until He calls me home."

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I have to re-create the doctrine of the scriptures 

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to accommodate my own mediocrity if I'm not careful.

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And it all goes back to Tuesday night!

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My longing was not responded to.

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I was being whispered to by the Spirit to give my two mites and I only gave one.

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And I wonder what happened when the calendar starts flipping by.

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It's because I've got that extra mite in my pocket

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like the rich young ruler wanted to do. 

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And Jesus said, "I wont have that.

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You can have religion, but you can't have me unless I get it all.  

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You can't buy the pearl of great price with half of what you have.” 

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Ananias and Sapphira - you’d better be a little bit careful about lying that you gave everything 

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when you really didn't. God's not really amused.

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“Oh, I give everything for Jesus" when you've got that mite tucked away in your pocket.  

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You're protecting your space, your time, your money, your real estate. 

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I'd like to climb it. I want to be around biological family. I'm protecting myself.

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I want what I want and God's going to understand.

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He'll understand that I've got that mite in my pocket.

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Well, He may understand. He may love you and forgive you.

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But I don't want to be one of those who has my work burnt up

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and I escape as one through the flames, 

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and you can smell the smoke on my shirt.

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Because everything I did for an entire lifetime of flipping calendar pages  

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I kept that mite in my pocket, 


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and the wood, hay, and stubble is burnt up.

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Alright, yeah, He loves me. I’m glad for that. 

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But He also deserves a testimony.

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He didn't come to save us only.

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He came to let us live the life of His Son

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A city set on a hill that cannot be hidden. Not invisible.