How Gentle Has Been Your Way With Me
From a Sister
from a sister here, putting it into words for all of us, towards and in Him, towards and in one another………
How gentle has been Your way with me.
Firm in proclamation, clear in unveilings,
but never crushing one so easily wounded
so vastly unworthy in every possible regard
furthest away from all i thought myself to be.
Yet, Your tenderness towards me has made many ongoing
and necessary awakenings become positive.
Gentle and tender is My Father’s manner with me,
though dark as lightless caves
my sins have been.
Through the generosity of His blessings to me
i live in astounded richness unearned
and the hope of all that His own Blood and Life
hold secure for me.
i do not love You enough!
in view of all that even now i see….
and what of all that remains to be revealed?
of times to come
where by Your tenderness alone will i live.
The past invades my present
with shame and regret and sorrow
IF i look back upon myself
yet, if i look back only to see how You have led me
by Your Love, not by my good following,
then the past exposes to me a key for today.
That key being the demonstration that
Love is alive,
that You hold me
if only i let You
because You are all the Love that ever was or ever will be
and that with Your Blood you marked me for Union with You
for ever and ever and ever.
It is an otherwise impossible miracle
that You have been able to show me
the depth of the blackness inside myself
without ever causing me to feel unLoved or abandoned.
Discipline i have felt from You,
but never disgust that would have sentenced me to become
all the evil that i was without You.
YOU are the Miracle, Father!
And we are merely the Work of Your Loving Hands.
i want to Love You more!