A Good Conscience

2001

The next one was a good conscience, meaning that if you know you’re walking outside of God’s will in some area of your life, it’s always going to sit there. It will hang over you all the time. You won’t have to even think about it, but it will rob you of vitality. You won’t be able to look people in the eye, you won’t be able to love. You can play the game, you can laugh, you can talk, you can do, but something inside of you is just rotting and you can feel it rotting. If you’re walking outside of God’s will in an area of your life, you will not have a good, undefiled conscience. It will just sit there right behind your eyeball sockets. You can almost feel it like it’s a physical presence.

It’s almost as if somebody did an x-ray of my head and my heart and my body they could see some object in there that just doesn’t belong there. It blocks your vision. It blocks your thinking. It blocks your heart and your personality. It constipates you as a person. You feel unfulfilled. Without a good conscience, because you’re abandoned to God’s will, you’re robbing yourself of strength. It’s like having mono all the time. You want to do the right things and your mind has an idea of what the right things are, but you can’t ever quite get there, because you have mono all the time and are just drug down. That’s what happens if you’re not giving yourself over to God’s will. You will not have a good conscience.

If that didn’t illustrate it well enough for you, if you can’t relate to what I am saying because of experiences in your life, I don’t know how else to explain it. But I think you know what I mean by that, because I think we have all done it. I know I have.