Others May, You Cannot
If God has called you to be really like Jesus in all your spirit, He will draw you into a life of crucifixion and humility and will put in you such demands of obedience that you will not be allowed to follow other Christians—and in many ways He will appear to let other good people do things which He will not let you do.
Other Christians and “ministers” who seem very religious and useful may push themselves, pull wires, and work schemes to carry out their plans but you cannot do it—and if you attempt it, you will meet with such failure and rebuke from the Lord as to make you sorely penitent. Others may brag on themselves, on their work, on their success, on their writings, but the Holy Spirit will not allow you to do any such thing, and if you begin it, He will lead you into some deep mortification that will make you despise yourself and all your good works.
Others will be allowed to succeed in making money, or having a legacy left to them, or in having luxuries, but it is likely God will keep you poor, because He wants you to have something better than gold, and that is a helpless dependence on Him, that He may have the privilege of supplying your needs day by day out of an unseen treasury.
The Lord will let others be honored, and put forward, and keep you hidden away in obscurity, because He wants to produce some choice, fragrant fruit for His coming glory, which can be produced only in the shade. He will let others be great, but keep you small. He will let others do a work for Him, and get the credit for it, but He will make you toil and work on without knowing how much you are doing. And then to make your work even more precious, He will let others get the credit for the work which you have done, and thus will make your reward ten times greater when Jesus comes.
The Holy Spirit will put a strict watch over you, with a jealous love, and will rebuke you for little words and feelings or for wasting your time, which other Christians never seem distressed over. So make up your mind that God is an infinite Sovereign, and has a right to do as He pleases with His own. He will not explain to you a thousand things which may puzzle your reason in His dealings with you. He will take you at your word; and if you absolutely sell yourself to be His slave, He will wrap you up in a jealous love, and let other people say and do many things that you cannot do or say.
Settle it forever that you are to deal directly with the Holy Spirit, and that He is to have the privilege of tying your tongue, or chaining your hand, or closing your eyes, in ways that He does not deal with others. And when you are so possessed with the living God that you are, in your secret heart, pleased and delighted over this peculiar, personal, private, jealous guardianship and management of the Holy Spirit over your life, you will have found the vestibule of Heaven.